#babyshowergoals

The baby shower was amazing yesterday! I am so thankful to have some amazing friends! The request for books for Liberty to create a library for her was a success! Asked people to bring a book which reminded them of their childhood or ones that taught important lessons and so happy with the selection n! I just need to add my additions of ‘Funnybones’ and ‘The Magic Key’ and Dave’s addition of the ‘Manchester United Annual 2018-19’ 👶🏻💦📚

#SkoolsoutforSummer! Maternity Leave starts now!

I am feeling such a wide variety of emotion! I have now finished work for maternity leave! It has been a stressful day with network issues, cancelled trains and my system crashing 10 minutes before I am supposed to leave #standard ! 4 weeks until Liberty is due so let the nesting commence and when I can crack open my Prosecco! I am so thankful to all everyone at work for your kind gifts, messages and support and can’t wait for her to meet her extended family! 🤰🏻➡️🤱🏻

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Please stop hiding and let me see more of you – 4D baby scan round 2

With Liberty being naughty on Monday when we had a scan in London, Ultrasound Direct allowed us to have a rescan for free even though I am classed as too far along! Went to their York clinic today and they tried so hard to get some more pictures but she is still being naughty! #likemotherlikedaughter managed to get another picture, see her yawn and see that she doesn’t just suck her thumb, she puts her whole hand in her mouth!! God I love her! #hellodaughter

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How am I going to get Liberty out? Planning for Labour using The Positive Birth Book by Milli Hill – PART 1

With all the drama planning for the what ifs around my mental health when Liberty arrives  and whether my meds would cause issues when it came to breastfeeding, I haven’t actually  been asked what kind of birth I would like. Before I was pregnant I would joke saying that I was too posh to push and have my labour booked in and plan my labour around my life. I would want the baby to come ‘out of the sunroof’ if you know what I mean as no way I would want to it to come out of my V. The thought terrified me! So it was time to ask myself what kind of birth I actually wanted.

Having no clue, a colleague at work suggested a book which was the ‘NO BS’ book to pregnancy, birth and the early days which would cover everything I wanted to know and all the things I hadn’t even thought of! The book was called ‘The Positive Birth Book’ by Milli Hill.

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Before candlelit dinners and ‘do not disturb’ turns into Bottle feed and Bedtime stories – Introduction to the trend of babymoons

People have asked me many times whether we were going to take a break just the two of us before Liberty arrives.  Apparently there is a trend that expectant parents do before child birth which is referred to as a babymoon!  This means having one last relaxing/romantic holiday as a childless couple. It is almost bittersweet! You get a reason to go on holiday however it will never be the same again! As candlelit dinners and ‘do not disturb’ turns into Bottle feed and Bedtime stories at 7pm.

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Hello Liberty! BEST.BIRTHDAY.EVER

Hello Liberty! Thank you for showing us just the smallest part of your face on the 4D scan! That is enough for me until I can see you properly in 6 weeks (ish) You are just perfect! I love you so much already, my future best friend and best thing that has ever happened to me! #libertyravenhughes

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My mask is starting to crack!

Today has been a bad day for me to be honest! I have had a great day with my niece Amber but I am exhausted now! Not just physically but mentally! I am experiencing a lot of anxiety at the moment and my mask is starting to crack and can’t seem to hide it that much longer. I am nervous for the multi agency Mental Health planning meeting on Wednesday, maternity Leave is less than 3 weeks away and feeling unprepared and to top it off, I having a few personal problems where my mood swings aren’t been understood therefore have a negative impact in my relationships! All I want is to be understood! In particular, people to understand what it means to have bipolar! I feel a bit lost at the moment with so much going on that I am struggling to keep my shit together! I can’t control my mood at the best of times and especially at the moment adding pregnancy to the mix, I am an absolute NIGHTMARE! I can be unreasonable, angry, ridiculous, overreact then excited, obsessive and loved up within a matter of minutes! I hate that this happens 😢 I just don’t know what to do! I am going to try get some sleep, everything normally feels better after a good sleep 🤞🏻
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